Define: Infatuation- An object of exaggerated short-lived passion.
Define: Love- A strong positive emotion of regard and affection.
My mind is thinking a million things right now. There are so many different points I want to make in this. I hope I get them all out. And, I must state YES he is the reason for this. I don’t think I’ve ever been in love. I know I’ve loved before but I’ve never loved whole heartedly. I don’t want to be hurt. Who does? I can make myself and others believe that I’m “happily ever after”. I’ve crafted this act. But, it’s pretty hard to fool yourself when you really know the truth.
“Marry someone you cannot live without.”
YES, THE M BOMB! And, so soon!! I hate expectations, I really do! I hate being a girl and thinking this way sometimes. Why am I even… (I just had a random thought process moment and if it wasn’t after 3am I’d call him right this second and point it out)… If I could live without him it’d be because I’m forcing myself to.
“Love yourself first and most…”
I have to do that. I’m sure someone tried to teach me along the way but is it something taught, learned or just known? I hope I teach my kids if it is something taught. Especially my girls…. I’m getting away from the topic. Do I love him or is this infatuation? Is there a way to know the difference when you’re going through it and not after…? What’s the saying:
“Hindsight is 20/20…”
Yeah, well I don’t want to find out that way. I need to know now. I need to know if this is the beginning or makings of my TRUE happily ever after…
***Sidenote~this is a post I had originally written earlier this week but I’m just getting a chance to finally post.***